the start

my name is rachel. i am a twenty something who sometimes still thinks that i am twelve (im convinced it might have something to do with my height). i grew up in the south and value words like y'all and surely. 

i had a normal childhood. i loved to hide in cabinets and was brought up in a house where all good kids go to auburn university.

although my roots are southern, i lost my heart to the great state of colorado when i was in high school. after my freshmen year of college i spent a month of my summer in my happy place. when i left i knew that at some point i would go back.

i continued my college experience. did the sorority thing. yelled war eagle about a bizillion times. served on multiple boards and campaigns. joined too many clubs. gained the freshmen 15. moved each year. drank toomer's lemonade. went to formals. went to football games. went on road trips. went to classes. skipped classes. fell in love with jesus.

fell in love with a boy.

graduated. got a diploma that insured i was ready for the real world.

moved home for 3 months. and then moved to colorado.

lived in colorado for a year. then moved home for the boy.

had several jobs. planned a future.

the future ended. abruptly. 

enter: heartbreak.

{heartbreak (n.) overwhelming distress}

i learned this definition as a twenty something who realized that after 6 years of fighting against a plan that was greater than mine. i thought i had my life mapped out. i knew who i was going to marry. what our kids names would be. where we would (most likely) live. i thought i had it fool proof. but i had completely lost who i was.

but someone had a different plan, a better plan. 

i had lived the past 6 years miserable because i was trying to make something work that wouldn't work. 

so this brings us to the present...

so i am a twenty something. newly single. trying to figure out who i am. 

i have no idea what tomorrow has in store. i have no idea who i will marry. what my kids names will be. or where i will live in the future.

but i know that this is only the beginning of a beautiful adventure.